That's right. I'm ready for you. Or at least I'm going to act like I'm ready for you and perhaps fool myself into actually accomplishing some of the items on the following list of aspirations.
Although the word 'aspiration' sounds straight out of Downton Abbey, I dislike the pressure associated with the word GOAL . It's very JV Volleyball huddle circa 1999.
Also, I'm not going to number them - because that will mean another hour of me agonizing what order they should be in...we're all about saving some time in 2013...i'm very excited.
SHOOT BETTER PHOTOS.
*YAWN* I know this is SO PREDICTABLE but what do you expect from a photographer's blog? This is a personal and obvious aspiration for a photographer. It's harder than you think. You get in your groove, what you're comfortable with, what you know will work and it's HARD to deviate from your safe and fluffy formula. 2013 calls for more danger and intrigue in the photos I want to take...maybe less danger and more intrigue...with a double dose of creativity.
CREATE PERSONAL PHOTO PROJECTS FOR FUN.
My great boss and mentor Bill is demanding this happen. "Get out of your box and do something just for you - not for money, not because it's easy. Challenge yourself."
This one is a nice compliment to the one above, but it's different. The above aspiration is about my everyday work - this is about doing something for your soul. Use a different camera or explore a different medium... Paint or draw or write or *gasp* shoot with film. I have some ideas for personal projects that I could get really excited about if I gave myself the time. And man, I kinda wanna get weird with it. Let's get crazy 2013! I just need to set aside some designated brain cells/hours...But I guess that's the point of New Year's Resolutions huh?
DRINK BETTER WINE.
You think I'm kidding. But I'm not.
BECOME AN ADULT.
Like a FOR REAL adult. I have my own business, I have my own place to live, I'm MARRIED for pete's sake - on paper I'm doing pretty good. Here's the thing...I wake up most mornings with the mentality of a 20 yr old. For starters, maybe I could try not wearing Chuck Taylors every single day of my life? Maybe I could invest in some "nicer" t-shirts? I would like to start dressing like an adult on a daily basis. I would like to wake up a little earlier and actually 'fix' my hair other than hoping it's mostly dry by the time I leave the house so I can immediately throw it up into a bun. Also, I would like to keep up with some kind of regular beauty regimen. Treating myself to a Mani/Pedi, a professional haircut, having my eyebrows shaped...you know, things adult women do. In short, I'd like to look like something I pinned on my "Style Inspiration" board on Pinterest and not a sloppy freshman who's late for her 8 am Statistics class.
*This is a long shot at best since it requires waking up more than 20 mins before I need to leave to be anywhere*
This is an oldie but goodie. I would love to learn to LOVE to exercise. When I hear people talk about how much they love it I can't help but think they are liars and probably cheaters, but maybe this is the year I will finally jump on the Exercise Bandwagon. The love for it is just not part of my DNA. Sure, I can do it. I can even get pretty good at it. But my affection for exercise has never risen above what I felt for say, the smart kid who sat next to me in biology. Admired, useful, but never loved.
Here's what I've put together by chatting with other ladies in my age bracket...The 26 yr old body is like that cool girl you met at a party or through mutual friends that you immediately clicked with while simultaneously being jealous of her outfit. She makes you laugh, you have fun together, you want to hang out more, you plan to make plans to get together sometime in the coming weeks or months and then you find out through Facebook or an Instagram picture that she has up and moved to a far away place and you'll never ever see her ever ever again. Sad story y'all. But so true.
Alas, in my old age I figure it's time to join the YMCA.
*This is an even longer shot than the above item*
KEEP IN TOUCH.
I'm so terrible at keeping in touch. Whether it's returning an email or a text or a phone call or mailing my wedding Thank You notes...I suck and I'm sorry, World. I am seriously going to try to be MUCH MUCH better at this.
I honestly feel like the more gadgets I have to 'keep me connected,' the worse I get.
It's so much easier to be the opposite of positive. Why is that? Let's turn that frown upside down in 2013 shall we?
VISIT MY FAMILY.
I have amazing sisters who live in super rad areas that aren't Texas - California and Wisconsin to be specific. I know what you're thinking - what a jerk I am for WASTING the opportunity to travel to these places and stay somewhere for free. It's not just you I'm disappointing, I promise. I've also got a teenage niece up in Wisconsin who I'm dying to spend some time with before I blink and OOPS she's 25. I recently reconnected with some kick ass cousins in the Oklahoma/Dallas area that I'm dying to spend a weekend shopping, gossiping and drinking good wine. They are all so close and yet so far away. I want to make at least one trip to California, Wisconsin and Oklahoma/Dallas this year. Dammit.
This one is very similar to "Visit Family" EXCEPT this one applies to tropical environments and/or places where they speak a different language entirely.
MAKE SOME DRASTIC CHANGES TO MY APPEARANCE (not really, but kind of)
The things I call drastic are the things normal people do on a Tuesday afternoon out of boredom. I would like to dye my hair a more obvious shade of red for awhile. I've never really had the balls to color my hair for fear that it would never ever return to it's orignal boring glory. Also, I actually like my natural hair color so I never really thought about it...until now. I think I want to try for 100% no doubt about it Redhead. None of this 60/40 red and blonde non-sense. I have some other ideas I'm bouncing off the old sounding board (aka my amazing husband) but maybe we'll wait and see how this first step goes...
START CHRISTMAS SHOPPING AND SHIPPING STUFF IN AUGUST (at least).
I say August is perfect because I will put it off until end of September, which really is the prime time to start scoping out some gifts on Etsy and beat the rush of all the LOSERS who wait until 2 days before (me) and is then offended by having to justify buying scarves for everyone again this year. *sigh* I'm better than the crazy dance I've been doing the past few years. Let me rephrase...I hope I'm better than the crazy dance I've been doing the past few years.
LOVE THE SPACE I'M IN.
My husband and I live in a tiny box 9 stories up in the air in one of the most eclectic/loudest neighborhoods in our fair city of Austin, Texas. It's actually not that tiny, and we should get out more and enjoy the people watching - but - that being said, I'm so tired of living here it makes my hair hurt. The parking, the loud music, the neighbors (although I'm rather fond of our immediate next door neighbor- it's all the others I could do without), only having room for half of our stuff...For 3 years my desk was either our couch or our bed depending on how fancy I was feeling that day. We are ready for a house. SO READY CAN'T WAIT YAY. However, the process of finding said house is difficult and frustrating, so for now, I need to love the space I'm in. I made a list of things that I could do to help with this problem - it's 33 items long and will probably be completed 3 hours before midnight next December 31st. Alas, I WILL TRY.
and while we're at it, let's just throw out some hopefuls for 2014...
- Rent/create a studio space. Because I consider lugging my gear around 'exercise' and we all know how I feel about that.
- Live in a house and not across from 10 + bars. *fingers crossed*
- Have a dog that's mine all mine/ours.